Just a quickie....

Ok maybe it will and maybe it wont but . If your reading this then your intrested in what I have to say already right?

As I sit here listening to Greek( A new fav) Season 2 episode 2 . Im thinking about how I have not posted in awhile. But but but befor you give me grief theres good reasons. Life has pretty much been hell the last couple days and befor that was a couple of great days. I guess its true that you have to take the good with the bad. This last week was SO true to that saying. Ok so brfor last thursday I had just been busy. Work. Kids. Yada Yada Yada.

Couple weeks ago I finally was able to get my new phone. I HEART IT. Its such a great phone and camera and I love that its a touch phone. Ive gotten a couple new pics with it . Which I will be posting in just a couple moments. While I was out and about with my loveable hubby bear and kids we had to waste time befor the phone store opend so we went into petsmart. This might have been a bad idea but hey I really wanted to go and we really had to waste time around that area. So we go in and right when we walk in they have a station set up because guess what day it happend to be when we just happend to need to waste time. If you guessed ADOPTION DAY then you win a cookie. Now all you have to do is drive to the store and buy one. Yea so as soon as we walked in there were these 4 week old kittens. They were sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute. And of course I wanted one. When I fell in love with one and heard the price was something I could manage I had to apply for this loveable lil guy to become part of our already twisted family. They told me in 2 weeks they would be able to go home with people and well were going on the 2nd week and I am anxiously awaiting a call. I really Really need to clean my house. And like almost everything else I have put it off untill the last min. But of course Ive been busy.

Last week was alright I guess. Just normal day to day stuff. Then got a text from my little brother , Whom Ive never met for reason that are my moms alone. But having him live accross country... Literlly , it was hard to meet other then on computer and phone. Then I got the text telling me he would be 3 hours from me. Of course I jumped on the chance and drove down too meet him. I think we would both agree that even thought it was the first offical meeting , it was like weve been apart of each others lives our entire lives. Even thought it almost didnt happen and the visit was only 2 hours long I am so glad that we had this chance. I know Im not a big talker and it was nerve wracking at the same time but it was great. Finally having that one person I knew was missing, finally fully apart of my life. We have soming in the works that might bring him closer to us but nothing set in stone first . But enjoy the pictures. Dont mind me.... I look like crap but I swear I looked cutier in the morning befor Wind got to me....

After that great friday Saterday was almost as great but hey Friday was still better. Saterday I finally got to go to one of Cpt.KIA's Flag Football games. It was ok. Not really sure who one. But Im thinking it was the other team. They were alittle better. Lil man enjoyed playing on this huge dirt hill with the other kids. It was fun to watch. Then later in the afternoon all of us gatherd up and went to a drive in thats really close to us. Thank God Iwas prepared with everything we would need because it was FREZING! befor the movies it was fine just alittle chilly but once the movies started and the the sun was gone it got so cold that after getting everything out we got everything back into the car and hurrdled in to the warmth. Got to see Up for the kids and Transformers 2 for mommy and daddy . Weve been wanting to see this since weve heard they were making another one and a bigger point in us wanting to see it is that part of it was filmed in our area. Yep thats right.

Sunday was horriable horriable day. For awhile now weve been dealing with Cpt.KIA being very agressive towards lil man. Now I know boys will be boys and their brothers fightings going to happen. But this stuff was beyound fighting. This stuff Cpt.KIA was doing could have seriously hurt lil man. And it was going to tear this family apart even though it was something neither hubby bear and myself wanted. But in the end of it all . lil mans saftey is what comes first to me. Always will be. But we had agreed to terms that seemed to fit everyone. Then for alittle while it seemed like things had calmed down. untill sunday. When he tought we wernt doing anything he did something mult times to lil man that would have been much worse if I wouldnt have caught him and stoped the situation instantly. At that point and time I was done. I would not allow my child to continue to be in danger from his own brother just to keep my marriage. Ove the next couple days we went from spliting up , me moving to tx with john, Cpt.Kia being sent to Bio mom. And anything in between. Thankfully weve come up with a solution that seems to make everyone seem alittle bit more better. Cpt.Kia will be going into theraphy. If by the end of the school year he has not changed and continues to do these things then he will be going to live with bio mom. I know this is a hard choice for hubby bear to agree to but at least were trying everything befor just giving up. But he knows that something has to change. And that even if its not what you want you always need to do whats best for the child. And right now we think this is the best choice and I know that hubby bears familly will always hate me if Cpt.Kia goes to live with bio mom seeing as all but one pretty much favor him over lil man but they dont know whats going on behind closed doors. They dont know the danger one child is over the other . They can judge me all they want but I know what needs to be done and Ill do what ever I need to , to get it done. If that makes me a bad person then so be it but Maybe if they get informed they will understand why these things will be in motion.

Yea the last couple days flat out sucked. but I think sunay and yesterday were the worse in a while. Yesterday wasnt toooo too bad for the most part. just a couple little things here and there. Had an OBGYN apt and then waiting all day to hear about the surgury my grandfather was undergoing. Other then that it was great. The apt ment great and grandfathers surgury was great. Nothing wrong happend . It just is what it is.

Ok its time to get john ready to send him off to school and hopefully get some cleaning done... Not sure how much though seeing as I didnt sleep very well last night ... and have work later. Maybe Ill do a couple thigns then save the rest for tomorrow when Im off.

I just dont know...

What the right thing is anymore.

Ok so maybe thats alittle dramatic. But its true. Im not sure of things right now. School has started back up and I love love love having some alone time durning the day where I dont have Lil man climbing all over me. Litterally. But at the same time That whole issue with me and hubby bear having a cell marriage has only gotten worse. Yes Ive quit my part time job , Which was only friday nights, But even with having friday nights we still had food shopping and football practice to go to so all in all we didnt really add any relationship time . And that 3 mins in passing where we passed the children off from one to the other is now gone. We dont even have 3 mins to say hi , hug and kiss and then bye. Now its all trew texting. Because lets face it Im not a phone person and now neither is hubby. Ive been tired for awhile of having a cell phone marriage and its getting worse. Just not sure what the right step is next for us. I love hubby bear but Im tired of having just a roommate and a cell hubby. Guess time will figure it out for me.

On a much lighter note. The fair was a blast. Everyone had a great time. Of course I forgot my camera. OPps. Oh well. Spent more time actually enjoying the time then worring about trying for the life of me to get good pictures out of a crappy camera. But we did get one good pic of lil man on a ride.

I think its cute. The boys were finally tall enought to ride some of the adult rides. Which were a blast. Of course they didnt like all of them but at least they tried them. Right?

To prove my point about the boys being the same height. While we were at the Fair we had to mesure the boys and found out Lil man is 44 1/2 inchs and Cpt KIA is 45. Now anyone want to argue that point with me?

Tuesday was the first day of school. It went really really smoothly. We got up early had a nice breakfast. Ok so it was only frozen waffles . But it was a treat for the boys. Got the boys dressed. Even though lil man goes Hours after Cpt.Kia Its easier to just get them ready at the same time. Then for the very time I got to take them to school. Of course Cpt.Kia was first since his school started first. It was nice seeing him going to school and excited and everything. His class brought back really nice memories of when I was in school. Man I miss thouse days. Left him with him teacher then went home with john for awhile. When it was time to take lil man we were out and about . I had met his teacher the week befor at the IEP so it was nice to see her again. We were early so we walked around the school for a bit till be found the Gym. Played in there for alittle bit untill his teacher came and got him. I went to get a hug but he gave me a high five and said bye. I wanted to cry. But I smile and waved bye .

I of course got pictures. But it turns out that when my momma did a great job clearing all the evils out of my computer she might have deleated something I need to upload the pictures to my computer. At least thats the only thing I can think of. But its ok. Ill go to walmart and print off the pictures then scan them. I hate my camera anyways because its old and dosnt really work anymore . Ive been planning on buying another one but been trying to push it off for as long as I could. But now it looks like Im gonna have to . But its ok. Because I need a new cell phone so Ive been wanting to get the Behold which is a cell and camera in one. I will sooner or later look into digi cameras and find one I really like and save for it but for now the phone will work .

The countdown begins....

School starts for both Lil Man and CPT.KIA on tuesday. I couldnt be more trilled and the boys are so young their still trilled about it too. Last week I went to a IEP meeting with LilMans teachers and they are clearly in love with my oh so young child. Beams proudly. They mostly had great things to say about him. And I believe are very happy that hubby bear and myself have made the choice to put Kinder off another year so that way he can stay in her class. And the greatest news that Ive gotten in a great time. Something my young son has had since the age of 6 months is no longer going to get. Yep thats right . He will no longer be given Physical Theraphy. For the lady says he is doing perfect and even though she would love to keep seeing him that there would be no reason for it. I almost wanted to cry. His entire life weve delt with physical delays that I was honestly beliving that this would be for his entire life. Yes it was a proud moment for me. Of course once again while we, Myself and both of my children, I got asked Once again if my children where twins. I dont know what it is about this question that makes me want to laught but everytime I hear it two points come to mind.
1. Their 2 years apart
2. I only gave birth to one of them.

Sadly Hubby bears family has a dawf gene in their family. Something that Cpt.Kia has taken on. Which surprises me because Bio Mom is rather tall . And Lil man has taken after all the men in my family and is rather tall. So they meet right in the middle. I find it funny at times.

Last night was a bitter sweet night for Hubby bear and a very exciting night for me. Last night We were outside grilling and a lil girl that Cpt.Kia knows from the buss stop and lives basiclly right behind us was out playing so Cpt.Kia went and played with her. We kept lil man with up so he wouldnt start fights . Well last night was the first time Cpt.Kia went over to a lil friends house to play. Hubby bear feels unwanted . but Even thought I can understand why hes feeling these things Im excited for Cpt.Kia because my fondest memories of being a child, Other then memories of my family. Is when I started to go out and play with friends and not have "grown ups eyes on us" We never did anything bad but it was just nice. And now my own child is going trew this. I know it will be awhile befor lil man is ready to just go out alone but thats ok leaves him to myself alittle bit longer. And to clearify he wasnt trully out alone . He was just at the little girls house and her mom was home and we can see right to their house from our windows.

Other then tuesday being really exciting day in my house hold Monday Im gonna be finally doing something Ive wanted to pa Since I moved to YANKIE LAND. Go to this huge fair that they have a week out of the year. Everyyear weve either had no money or no sitter. Well this year I have the money and the boys are old enought to go with us . I cannot wait.

http://www.allentownfairpa.org/

Sadly Nana will not be able to go to their first Fair. But Im sure there will be LOADS of pics taken. As well as first day of school Seeing as Im taking both of them to their first day . Something Ive never been able to do befor.

Nana is going away to our homeland. The South.
Its a bitter sweet thing for me. Im so glad mom gets to go bad to see family and bring me back lots of pictures . But Its sad because I miss home ALOT. Along with the family she will be seeing. Im excited that she gets to go but just wish I could go with. Hopefully soon Ill be able to bring my lil family down and introduce them into the life I once called mine. Sooner then later would be grate. I will be calling you tomorrow mom befor work. But If your already on your way when I call have a safe and great flight and let me know you made it safely and see you in 2 weeks.

Im gonna go chill on the couch befor I have to get ready . Talk to yall later.

ARGE

I guess thats all I can really say about today . Today has been.... To put it nicely... CRAP. One of those days you just want to go back to bed and start all over again.

I dont know why mother nature likes playing games but the 1st of september and its already freaking cold. So of course hubby bear being the great family man he was and not wanting his family to freze after he left to work turned the ac off. Yea that little break the ac got from the time he turned it off and the time I tryed to turn it on after turning the heat off , Which we finally got fixed this week, Well lets just say the stupid ac froze. Yep thats right. Our central ac FROZE. How?!? Oh well Thankfully it was beautiful out and we were able to open the windows. In fact I have our front door open since the screen door has a screen in the middle of the glass which is really helping right now. Im already seeing a sleepless night for me since I have to be curled up under a blanket to sleep. Oh well. Guess if this is the worst night this year Ill take it .

The boys have been taken over by devils ..... Please please please sweet angels go find my beautiful loving kind children durning the night and replace them in their sleeps. Ill owe you forever. Please? Its been one of those days where they think they run the house and were more then happy to do everything other then what I told them to do. Yea. Its been a ball of fun up in here yall.

Finally got the speedometer in my car fixed. HAHA thankfully. Now I dont have to keep really goot track of my speed anymore..... .:Cought:. I mean Not like I have to look anyways because Im perfect and I never break the law..:Cought:. And yay I dont have anymore broken plastic glass thingy infront of the consol. I always hated that but it was broken for a good reason. The freakin bus driver was drivin off with CPT.KIA so Of course it makes sence to Trow a cell onto the consol dash and smash the plastic glass thingy while speeding off and cussing. See my hubby bear know just the right thing to get me going .

Not to much else has been going on. Wasnt able to get all this junk taking up space in my living room into the shed. It will happen soon. I just know it .With hubby bear taking my car in then picking up one of my checks to him doing the oil on his car and be finally having a good turn out of food from the grill there was just no time. Maybe on Laybor Day. Both me and hubby bear are off all day long so we should be able to find 45 mins to get this taken care of. If not itll just continue to be a ever pressent fixture in my rather large living room. Im honestly not sure how Ill feel about it once its gone. Im so use to it that itll be weird not having it .

Ok gonna try to go catch up on one of my new semi fav shows . Greek . Nite all .