Thinking/Thankful

Hello everyone. I know it's been alittle bit since I wrote my last one. Lifes been pretty crazy.But I have a question for everyone. How many of you actually take time out of your day and trully sit down to think about all the good things in your life? I, For one, Have a issue with always thinking about " What ifs" " Why mes" And what nots. I mean Im sitting here thinking about everything I still need to pack.And it hit me. I have a pretty good life. Here I am 23 years old and Im moving into my VERY OWN HOME! I mean yes I've lived in homes with my family. But this is my very own without anyone. Ok Let me try to say that again. This is the first time My little family is moving into our very first house. Yes its a trailor but damn. Some of them are nice. And for the price were paying it was a steal. But thats not the point of this. I mean Lately I've been down. Everything good that would be happening in my life I would first thing think of the bad things. Like Were moving into our own house. But its not in texas. Getting a nice couch. But its not the one I wanted. But then Im sitting here thinkink about this and Im like Damn. How could I be thinking all that stuff. I mean Yes . Once in awhile its ok to be down and think about the what ifs and what nots but it was beging to become a habit for me. I have a really good life. Were moving into a nice house. We have everything we need because my husband is a hardworking man that puts his family over everything and I couldnt love him more for that. Our children and My self always have what we need and most the time what we want. Everyone is in perfect health right now. And for those that know my sons history you would understand why thats such a huge issue with me. Yes Someone that at one point in my life I hated. And when I say hated I mean hated. Is coming back into my life. But they have proven to improved there life and for that my stepston is going to have a better life. At least I hope. I dont want to say it because I know the moment I do somethings going to happen to make it all go to hell. but let me just say this. Im very thankful for the luck I have has thus far. I know I usally think about the only things that could make things better . But Im going to work even harder at being thankful for how good things are already and say thankyou more offten. But I want to send a huge thankyou out to my hubby. He works day in and day out to make life better for me. This was not always the case and we have had our rought parts. But weve been together 6 years. Thats to be expected. He gets up at the buttcrack of dawn goes to work. Comes home. Watches the boys while im at school then instead of going to sleep when the boys do he stays up knowing how early he has to get up for work just to make sure i get home ok or cook me something when i get home. I honestly dont know what I would do without him. And even thought not everything is the way it should be I know even in the worst of times he still loves me and I him. So this goes out to you hunny . THANK YOU for loving me , even in the worst of times, Thank you for being a great father and a perfect provider.

As Promised.....

Ok, So as promised.Here are some pictures of the new color.They are not the best pictures in the world but they were taken yesterday 'morning' , Hince on the morning part, While I was at Cpt.KnowItAll's bus stop waiting for his bus. Anyone that knows me well enough , Knows I am not a morning person. I was not feeling good. Extremly cold.And no make up. So yes. There notthe greatest in the world but oh well. Im sure when the times right Ill get some Kick ass pictures of them. But its turning into a reddish brown. Think it looks pretty good. Not sure if ill change it befor I get the completly new style or not. That is still yet to be determaned.
This ones of me inside and much harder to tell the hair color. But I figured might as well try to put it on here. I think when I get some free money, Which will probly be never, Im going to have to try to get like Photoshop or something like that. But once again. Very tired. Very cold. And no make up. Me in all my glory lol so to speak.

ok so here something I was woundering. Why is it on a full moon EVERYONE is 1000% insane?I mean comon. Dont we have controll over how we act? Ok so maybe not everyone does but most of us should. Yesterday was insane I think.People were rude and cranky all around. Ok get this. Me and hubby had to do food shopping. Not that strange right? Well we knew it would such because both of us were tired and cranky to begin with. Now were the type of people that we can handle one or the other but with both of us we already knew be would bicker. Surprisingly we didnt that much. Think the tiredness overpowerd it. But yea so of course hubby's hungry so befor anything else we have to go eat. Think in the end Im greatful he demanded food first. The night coulda gone alot worse if we didnt eat. Maybe we have low blood sugar or something stupid like that. So hubby ask me and I say I dont care where we go. Then he ask Cpt.K.I.A. And it was decided to go to DENNYS! Haha shoulda seen the face that boy had on him when he awnserd.It was priceless.But I dont mind Dennys. Like it actually. Everytime we go there we request this certain woman. Ok let me explain about her. This woman is the most sweethearted woman I have probly met since being up in pa. Well maybe she ranks right under a couple other people but still. She has been waiting on hubby pretty much all of his life. I dont think theres ever been a time weve gone in there and she had been rude or mean or messed up our order. We enjoy going in there and seeing her. Well we go in and right off the get go this other woman thats always upset that we request "D" started to trow a fit saying " They cant request people and yada yada yada . We were like " What? We cant request anymore?" How stupid is that, That you cant go into a place. That you go all the time and like every other time . Request the waitress YOU, The customer , want. And just because "D" was standing by us as this was going down the other one figured she was already claming us. How stupid is that. Theres been times befor where we went in and didnt have her even though she was there. Shes not greedy. She understand things happen. Well the other one went and cryed to the manger. Which I think hes the stupidest man alive. For other reasons I cant really explain right now. But she got sent home all for the fact the other one. Who btw was on break ! and still causing problems. She got in trouble because the other woman has a stick somewhere and WE asked for her. We were half tempted to just leave. We got an alright waitress. Shes no "D" but she wasnt too bad. Well when we were done we found out that " D" was going to have to wait almost 6 hours befor her husband would be able to pick her up after he got off of work. Well comon people hubbys known her all his life. We wernt going to just leave knowing she had to sit in there with the people that forced her to leave early.This woman had worked there 23 yrs to be treated like she was such a bad person because , We. The customers, Requested her? Comon .What is wrong with people these days. We anyways were in the car taking her to her house andwe get on the subject of my brother in law. I have some personal isuess with him. and somehow us talking about him got us talking about something me and momma had just been talking about hours befor hand. My brother in law has tons of pircings. Think he has more then me. But something was said about how brother-in-law looks and how hes all about god. and it got me thinking. Why do people with Pircings and tattoos get looked down at like were bad people. I mean I have 5 tats and 9 pircings . I dont go to church because I cant handle large crowds of people I dont know. And I feel like in chruch people like to judge. But does that mean Im the devil? No . I believe in god. Angels. Spirts. The whole bit.I dont really fall under one or the under for religion. I mean , Yes I was raised baptist christian. But to me I dont feel like I should be forced to pray when I want.I am not a bad person for that. I just feel like I should be able to do it when I want to. I dont down any others outlooks on it so I dont accept others to speak badly on mine. I mean its not like Im goign around saying " Devil this and devil that" Anyways back on track... which was.... ermm..... oh yea... Full moon. Well after we took"D" home we made our way to walmart. OMG whos stupid idea was it to go to walmart on a full moon on the day befor its stupose to be a snow storm. Yea that would be mine. Hubby wanted to go today but I knew it would be bad out because my knee had been killing me. its snowing as I am typing this btw. but yea I think when we got done there I was ready to kill someone. Think we waited in like longer then we were actually shopping. God people were rude. Cant count the amount of time people just pushed into us or walked infront of us then got even ruderd with us when I would say something. SORRY for trying to walk! Gah ok sorry Im seeing this turning into as huge groan blog so Im going to end it here. So long. Farewell....

~~Always....Dream~~

Alrighty then......

This is my step-son....well be calling him Cpt.KnowItAll lol I Love him.
This is my baby boy. Well just call him " Sowwy"

This is me and my hubby on our 1 yea wedding aniversary weekend. Waiting to see Reba and Kelly Clarkson in concert..... Love you baby. Yes he usally has red checks.Dont ask.

This is the new cut.... Gotta get use to it

So how bout we get this night started with another one right off the back. Figured everyone would like to know some more about me then just the main, boring details everyone else gets to hear about day in and day out. Alright so some little things. I recently cut my hair .... Saterday actually .... So Now its short. And when I say short and you look at the picture and go * Huh? * Yes to me thats short. I usally dont go very short for the simple reason. CANT FIND A GOOD CUT! But heres the reason I got it like that. I have this picture of a style I plan to get here very soon. Cut , Color ,Highlights.... The whole bit. And for me to do that.It was going to be a drastic change for me. Well I needed a trim anyways so figured ..... "Hey might as well get it cut simular to how Im goign to do it to see if itll work. Looks like crap... oh well itll grow back" Yes thats pretty much how I think about everything now a days. well turns out I can pull it off. Well yea I tryed to call Hubby to tell him , more of a warning, but of course he didnt awnser his phone. So I guess we can say when I got home he got a surprise. Ok well now the other part of why Im telling you this story. If you read in my "Opening blog" you sall that I am currently attending classes at Empire Beauty School. Which btw . Much better then the other choices around here.Back to the subject. We had gotten done with the mini final and our roller set that we had planed for the day ( FYI MRS.LITZ PLEASE NEVER LEAVE AGAIN!!!!) so our sub. Which btw Shouldnt be teaching. But she gave us free time. Yes..... Freshman girls +Free time + Hair color= Intresting experiance.only two of us dyed.... opps sorry not allowed to say dyed anymore... thats not Jargon. But anyways Only two of us Colored our hair. Me and Sam. I think it came out really cute. Mine is this Goldeny brown color. I wasnt able to get a good picture of it but hopefully in a day or two I will have one. But yea. So I think we should never be given free time in class anymore because god only knows what well do to each other next time. Thats right people. Im going to be learning how to cut peoples hair soon....* Insert scream and running away here* But its all good. Hubbys supportive. Think he misses having me home at night......But I know when were around each other too much it usally ends up with us fighting. But I enjoy getting out of the house. Dont get me wrong. I love love love being a stay at home mommy. But Damn..... sometimes you just need some YOU time. Time where you can get out of the house without the kids and have some Grown-up time. I look forward , most the time , to going to class. I get along with everyone there and have a GREAT teacher. Yes Im not always up for what were learning and Ill be the first to admit I get very frustrated when I cant get something to go perfect. But I love it. I love learning new things. And btw everyone. Ive wanted to go into cosmo for the past ten years. Even took some classes at one time in my life.Idk. Think maybe Im just really excited about it because its still new to me. like a new toy or something. I do have to admit I miss putting the boys to bed every night. But I get the mornings and the nights friday-sunday nights. So I think I, as a hard working mommy and wife deserve to have these 4 hour a night 4 nights a week to myself. Anyone think elseways? Ok im going to make a promise to myself and everyone else that actually reads this that Im not going to use this site for moaning and groaning about my life. Cant promise Ill never do it because yea... everyone knows thats not going to happen. but I am going to use this as a place for me to be me. If Im feel giddy one day youll get giddy if im pissed off the next youll get a bitchy Nikki. Is that ok with everyone? I sure do home so because sooner or later I would like some readers that would be willing to give me some feedback on my crazy , insane life. Wow ok so something I was going to post about more into my life went more into school . Oh well I think once in awhile its good to talk about things that are on your mind. right? Or why else would we blog? Guess Im just really happy because I passed my mini final with a 80%. Granted there was only 10 questions. But still. I think freaking 80 is great. Now I just really need to study for my final thats in two weeks. Ok people I know your thinking. Cosmo? Studing? Yes you couldnt believe how much chemisty and what nots in this stuff but be glad Im learning it. You wouldnt want to go to get your hair done one day and have the stylist not have clue what she was talking about right?Thats what I thought. Alright every guess Ill let everyone get some sleep. Im probly gonna be up or awhile because my knee is killing me... More then likely gonna get bad weather tomorrow or saterday... well guess it is tomorrow since its 1 in the moring. Oh yea FYI To me its never tomorrow untill I wake up. So yea to me its still tomorrow . lol alright GoodNight everyone.

~~Always....Dream~~

The first of many......

Now now now... I know what everyones thinking... Not another opening blog. Well guess what people . Thats exactally what this is. I mean how on earth are you suppose to have as blog without having a opening one. Yes I know. Everyone hates writing them. Trust me. This isnt one of my foundest things to do in the world. But Im feeling that if you're going to be reading about my life along with my friends and family.Then maybe, Just Maybe, you should know some things about me. But I'll make it easy on myself and everyone out there. Ill be doing a copy and paste from Myspace.... Yes I have a dread'd Myspace*Everyone gasp here*Ok so on to the C&P with a few twikes here and there. ~I am a 23 year old female~I am a stay at home mother of a wonderful 4 year old son and my great 6 year old Stepson. ~I am currently attending classes at Empire Beauty School~ ♥I am happily married to the love of my life♥ ~Have been with my husband almost 5 years and married a little over a year. Yes ... We have out problems but in the end we always grow stronger.~I love my life and wouldn't change it for the world. ~Well just maybe to be back in Texas wouldn't hurt anything. ~I was born and raised in Texas. Live in Pa since late 2002. ~Love spending time with my friends when given the chance and love more then anything to be with my family no matter what were doing!~Dont do drugs and bearly drink when given the chance. ~I'm shy but blunt. ~I mean what I say and definitely say what I mean. ~At the end of the day I have to be able to say I did my best and treated everyone well. ~I think after I get over my shyness and people get used to my randomness. ~I am a nice person. ~But never get on my bad side. ~I would think most people would think this about me. ~But hey what do I know. ~I was born my own friend. ~If I didn't like me I couldn't run anyway. ~I am dork,there is no getting around that but you either love me or don't thats up to you to decide. ~I am a true Southern Girl at heart and always will be. ~Have 9 pircings and 5 tattoos.! Yes Im inked and pirced but I currently only wear 8 of my pircings.And the places I have tattoos at are as fallowed.... Right outter ankle. Left top foot. Both wrist. And upper back.See there not that bad.I do plan on getting more Tattoos but I really think Im done with Pircings.~I am who I am no matter if you like it or not but usally the people that take the time to get to know me usally say that I'm one of the best but if you think else wise then so be it .... ! See People that wasn't so bad. Worth the read? I know it was for me but of course it is my life and I enjoy it. Why shouldnt I. I mean if I dont enjoy it I would be a really crabby person all the time and common.... What fun would that be? Ok so now I think its time to close down this dread'd opening blog.... Might even get another one out of me befor the nights over with. Think youll be that lucky? Guess youll just have to keep reading to find out.

~~Always....Dream~~